The Beginning Again - Day 5

Ok, so not exactly right at the beginning, but sorting out life has taken longer than anticipated.  I finally braved the scale, after two weeks of freedom, and I can happily say that I was only up 3lbs. It was a terrifying affair if I do say so myself, but in the end, I conquered and finally opened my eyes to actually LOOK at the scale.  I know what I have to do differently at the end of this phase, but if any excuse can be found I really was in party mode.  After this phase I keep telling myself, it will be different.  It has to be different.  Some of the things that I noticed during my "freedom" was that old habits really do die hard. By the end of the two weeks I was already breaking two cardinal rules, the first being, eating when I am already full, and the second, snacking between meal times.  I have to say, I am eternally grateful for the reprieve of meals that had become quite bland and repetitive, and that I am coping all right with the move back into this strict form of eating - but I do find that the cheating is quite tempting. Especially when we finally bought our Halloween candy.  When my husband jumped up from the couch yesterday to partake in a snack of peanut m&m's, I am sure I turned 3 shades of green. I wanted to grab them and eat them...ALL OF THEM.  I am pleased to report that I held off, and the candy is now in a secure location (out of sight - out of mind) but that it tells me that food still has a significant hold over me. I continue to work and fight it.  Viva la results! Down 3lbs to 185.2 - here's to horizons not seen for five years, down we go!