Tuesday, 27 September 2011

Day 19: A mile in heels is longer than a mile in flats

I went to a Ladies group today, last week I noticed that lots of the more trendy girls were wearing sleek jeans with cute shoes poking out the bottom adding a feminine touch to the every day work jean.  Now, in no way do I consider myself an expert on anything fashionable, but the thought occurred to me that I sure liked that look.  It made me feel kind of bulky and awkward in my over supported, laced to the top running shoes.  This morning as I was getting dressed, I grabbed a cute pair of shoes I had tucked away in my closet and wore those.  

No one noticed, but I sure felt like I was fitting in. The shoes were even cooperating with me, and the pain was bearable.  When everyone sat and we relaxed, I was proud of how my feet were holding up.  I really enjoyed the group, and when it was finished stood to go.  Well, the pain that had been holding out well before, was now in full screaming color.  I hobbled back to my car, and limped my way home. No one noticed.

To fit in for a pair of shoes? Really? I'm not sure my feet will be back to their happy selves for weeks, all for a selfish wish to fit in.  I feel good about the weight that I've lost, but I don't want to strive to fit into something that I'm not to replace the weight.  At times I even find myself being judgmental and critical.  Every day, God is teaching me things and showing me things and I feel like the road just gets longer.  I don't think that's a bad thing, I'm willing to learn, and willing to change my heart.  I'm just grateful that God doesn't require me to walk that road in high heels.

Today 188.04 lbs

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