Tuesday, 27 September 2011

Day 24: A Break in the Action

When the weight comes off, the days are easier.  I am coming into a new phase of this diet, and I am a bit nervous about it. In some ways it feels just slightly miraculous that since the day I started this diet I've lost between 15 - 17lbs.  I am proud of it, but don't necessarily feel like I've worked at it super hard.  In this new phase I am able to lighten the very strict restrictions on this diet, it will only be for about a week or so, but I really don't want to pack on the weight again.  I think that this is where the hard part comes in, the part where I have to work to discipline myself even more.  There are still so many things that I am not confident that I've learned completely.  I don't want food to be my idol, but the temptations have been stronger to grab a snack of this or that, snag a piece of meat I'm cooking for my husband and son, and I don't want to go back there again.  At the beginning of this diet, before I started, I used to eat and eat and eat, simply because I didn't want to feel deprived of anything.  It was silly logic, because to be healthy I need to stop myself from eating the way that I do, and eat differently.  Now, after actually being "deprived" and not able to eat many things, I think my perspective has changed.  I guess time will tell, God help me.  But, I look at food now as a blessing that God has given us, something to survive on, but not something to ruin myself over.  It's going to be interesting...forward, always forward. 

Tuesday, September 27 - I weigh 185lbs. 

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